I Love Mother’s Day!!!  I LOVE being a mom….  and I LOVE my MOM!!! I think the best part of being a mom, is celebrating with your kids, that everyday is an opportunity to learn, love, live, and just cherish this adventure of life…..  and when things get difficult, to teach your children there are wonderful possibilities that always exist beyond that rough moment.  I just want my children to dare to dream, believe in themselves, and follow their calling!!!  I made the above video to celebrate my MOM!!!  My mom and I are real different, which always leads to lots of interesting situations…..  but one thing that is the same, is our ability to dream, and see possibilities, and the love we have for each other. I couldn’t have asked the Universe to have blessed me with a better teacher!!! :0)  Feel Free to copy the attached link, and send it to your mom.  Make sure you do SOMETHING for that special woman….. Cause On Mother’s Day…..  You need to make sure you ROCK Your MAMMA’s World!!!  Sending you giant hugs all over the UNIVERSE!!!

Peace To You,

Big Mamma

With all these scary , and crazy things that happened to me in the sea, one experience sticks out the most. When I was 9 and in sailing school……  I loved spending time in my sunfish alone.  I would just sing to the fish and the birds and feel the wind.  One day I felt this INCREDIBLE peace come over me.  All my friends jumped in the lake to swim, but I just stared at the water,  and felt myself melt into some kind of ecstasy.  In my life, I had never felt a peace like this, and to this day I have not experienced it again.  The sun just melted me.  The next thing I knew, the instructors were carrying me to the club house.  They laid me down on a lawn chair and covered me in Ice.  Turns out I had a Heat stroke.  My temp was over 105……

This experience really taught me that just because something FEELS really good, doesn’t mean it’s good for you at all(The Heat)….  And that  something that FEELS bad, might actually be good for you(Ice)….  This lesson is one of the most frustrating paradoxes in my life.  I think too much…..  and this is the  lesson I am still trying to figure out. Honestly makes me really irritated.  But then again………  The heat would have been fine in moderation, and there would not have even been ice in the equation……… But the problem was, I didn’t know I was over doing it, until the ice woke me……..  See what I mean?  ….. Lastly……  I must honestly tell you, that I am not upset that I experienced the stroke, because the peace was so incredible.  I would rather feel that experience, than never feel any of it at all, but I can say that, only because I ended up not hurt….. My head is starting to swirl.  When I figure out this lesson decisively…..  I’ll write another blog or song…. but until then…… I wish you JUST the right amount of sunshine and warmth……  One that WON’T and CAN’T hurt you…. And I’ll wish the same for myself!!!  :0)   Thanks for visiting……. and I hope you enjoyed my 3 part blog about The Sea and I….. and what it has taught me! :0).

Peace To You,

Lex

When I was 15, I had this giant crush on this boy that was 1 year older than I. All the kids from my school went to this camp with our youth group. They had sailboats, and so I signed up for sailing. My crush got wind that I passed the test, and was allowed to take boats out alone, and so he joined me. This camp was in Minnesota, and we were on this giant lake having a blast. He kept saying,,,,, “I can’t believe you know how to do this”, and then…… the sky turned dark, and a storm blew in really fast. The wind was so strong that the boat turtled and was STUCK upside down. We kept trying to climb on the dagger board and turn the boat back up, but we would just get knocked off by the humongous waves. My crush started freaking out. We were so cold, and lighting started striking down everywhere, and the thunder boomed as if it was coming from hell. He kept saying….. “I thought you knew how to sail”, and then he would say”, “we‘re gonna die from Hypothermia”….. I just couldn’t stop laughing. I started laughing so hard I started to cry…. And he started getting so scared and mad at me for laughing that he started to cry. The madder he got, the harder I laughed. Finally the camp came for us. Turned out the Master Pole broke, and they had to tow us to shore. My crush was traumatized forever. We stayed friends, but it was never quite the same after that.

That day I learned several things about myself. I could list them all….. But instead I’ll list the one I feel is the most important lesson. Never be TOO confident in life….. and ALWAYS have a plan for that unexpected storm…….. Then it is not a storm…. Just a beautiful display of electricity….. and mother nature at work!

Attached is a little snippet of some footage we took, for my next Music Video, for a song I wrote called “Swept Away”…… Hope you enjoy it…… I’ll be honest though….. I still suffer a little PTS from the incident I wrote of above. That adrenaline  just always rushes as the wind  picks up in my sales!!!!  :0)

Peace To You,
Lex

Click here to view the embedded video.

I am by the Sea, and since I can remember, the sea has always played a big part in my life. I’ve learned a lot from the sea. I long to be in the water, by the water, all the time….. It feeds my soul in some mysterious way…… and it is a true metaphor to me, for life. I often write about the sea in songs.

I grew up in Indianapolis, Indiana. Indianapolis is an area absent of water, except the white(dirty) River, and a reservoir called Geist. When I was a child, Geist was owned by the water company, accept for one tiny parcel of land, that was owned by the Indianapolis Sailing Club. Every weekend my mom and dad would race their sailboat, and for 5-7 hours I would play hide and seek in the shipyard, make bottle boats, or hide in the ladies room and draw pictures until my parents returned to their dock. My dad was from Morehead City, NC and I knew he needed to sail. He worked so hard during the week, and when we would drive to the club, I would see this twinkle in his eye, that just made me know that the world was good!!!

When I was about 12, my mom got the flue, and I had to be the second mate. My dad and I were in first place in this particular race. It was an unbelievable day, and I was just sooo excited because my dad liked to win, and he was in heaven, Towards the last hour of the race, a storm blew in! Things got REALLY exciting. We were about to win, and needed to make a jibe. I couldn’t get the jib up, so my father asked me to take his place ,and take over the rudder while he put the jib up. He said “Now, When I yell turn port, You turn port”…. He got the jib up and yelled “Turn Port” and of course my dyslexia and anxiety got my mind all mixed up, and I turned starboard, and he flew off the boat. He was screaming, I was screaming, and fortunately this all happened close to this little island, so I ran the boat ashore, and my dad was able to get back on the boat. We ended up coming in last. He was actually pretty cool about the whole thing. Didn’t really say much……. But I was just so bummed out for letting him down.

After I got over my disappointment, I continued to sail. I had become pretty good at sailing, and I actually won the Junior Regatta. Sailing is like writing a song. If you don’t think, and you just feel the wind……..guiding the sails becomes natural. But if you start trying to manipulate the wind….. You just better watch out…….. cause the wind’s got a mind of it’s own…..and it will let you know what’s up!!! Stay tuned later this week for Part 2, in a three part series……….All about what the wind and Sea mean to me!

Peace Out, Lex

For You On Valentine’s Day!!!
Hey…….  I just recorded this song in my Kitchen Studio called “Love Is A Lot Of Work”  for all of you on Valentine’s Day…….  Hope You enjoy!!!

Click here to view the embedded video.

Peace Out,
Lex

Hooty Hoot Hoo.... The Owls Watching You!

Current mood:  intense
Next week, I will be posting a video with a song I wrote, called “Eyes On The Back Of My Head”.  It was written this past fall, after enduring a very difficult year.  It is the first song I have ever written when I was angry……..  So I am out of my comfort zone sharing it!  To me though, being a singer/songwriter is not about being comfortable…..  It’s about a responsibility to share words and visions that flow through me, the best that I can.  So in the next week, it will be shared…..
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The song was inspired by an owl in my backyard that kept watching me through my windows.  It is said by the Indians, that if you continually see an owl, that you are going to be all knowing about your life and others, and will know when anyone or anything is deceiving you.  During this time, I started seeing things in my life that broke my heart……and this song was written.   I’m not angry anymore ….  But through it all I learned the meaning of trusting my self, and now I trust myself, more than anyone else.   There is silver in that lining for sure…..
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Assumptions are made about me, and my positive attitude all the time.  I’m aware that some uninformed people think I have my head in the clouds.  I make the choice to see the silver lining because I refuse to be bitter and angry about the horrors in this life, and spread that kind of energy.  I read a quote that said “Hope means nothing without action”…  So as a Woman, I take action by writing songs about what I see, hopefully allowing others to see those things through my heart.  I have friends that have died, friends that have lost children, battled cancer, lost husbands, and suffered heartbreak.  As a 16 year old girl, I volunteered in the inner city for 2 years and watched 13 year old girls followed by their pimp, children who wore un matching shredded shoes, just to barely cover their feet, and little ones as young as 4 who would come to hang out with me, because they were terrified to be at home.  I got lost in China, and will never forget the horrors I saw.  I personally have a grandfather, and godfather that killed themselves.  I could spend hours listing the horrors I’ve seen, and could spend my life consumed by the sadness.  I refuse to allow this to happen. I won’t allow myself to become bitter, and lose my zest for life….. and I laugh in the face of THAT destructive energy, and hope my songs will make a difference in some way.
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I have this special room in my house filled with vanilla and lavender candles. I go to this room to sit in silence, and clear my thoughts!  Every time I walk by the room, I smell the candles and I get this warm peaceful feeling inside of me.  I can’t explain it, other than it makes me know that I am alive, and well, and ready for what is on my path.  In this room hangs a picture that I painted of some incredible musicians, and when the room is dark, accept for the light of the candles, the picture glows and takes on a 3-D effect, and it is just the coolest thing ever.   I am thankful for this life.  I am thankful I can write songs, and I am thankful that people want to listen……..  for it means my message was received, and hope transcends!!!….
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Attached is the picture I painted of the Owl that kept visiting me.  Hope you enjoy my angry song :0)…..  The picture will be for sale on my ebay store shortly…….  Thanks for stopping by……  Check back next week if you want to hear the song!….

Oh….  and on April 16th, I will be singing at Eddies Attic at benefit for suicide prevention with many other performers!  I know this organization could use your support, so come to the show if you can.  I would love to see you!

Currently listening:
Blacklisted (Original Recording Remastered)
By Neko Case
Release date: 2007-11-06

Current mood: Mysterious
Hope the end of your year is SUPER and next year is even better.  Check out the attached link to see exactly what I’m wishing for!  Thanks for reading my blogs and supporting my music this year……  Can’t wait to enjoy 2010 together!  YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!  Happy New Year!

Click here to view the embedded video.

Love,
Lex

Currently listening:
Secret Garden
By Bruce Springsteen
Release date: 1995-05-30

Surprise
Current mood:  thankful
Merry Christmas!!!   If you’ve read any of my blogs, then you’ll know how hard I’ve been working to play that guitar with a steady rythm! I’ve attached my little Holiday miracle of being able to play and sing my FAVORITE Christmas song.  Hope you enjoy!!  Wishing you the best Holiday Season in the world, full of your own miracles, unfathomable Love, and tons of tons of light!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qrwgmp_As9s&feature=player_embedded

Love,
Lex

Currently listening:
Anthology: Through the Years
By Tom Petty & the Heartbreakers
Release date: 2000-10-31
Wednesday, December 09, 2009

I’m talking about the kind of LOVE that is beautiful and pure.  The kind of love that would never let a child suffer, a man or woman die sad or alone.  The kind that would never allow POWER to be more important than PURPOSE.  The kind that everyone knows would never hurt another being, no matter what!!!  Most importantly, the kind that gives us the strength to forgive ourselves, and others for the acts committed in moments, when truth is lost.  Finally, the kind that gives, but wants nothing in return!!!

When I was a little girl, I found it fascinating that old people often looked so sad, or mad. I was blown away by what would happen if I just shot them a smile.  I would imagine sending them a box of love as I smiled, and LO and BEHOLD, these OLD elders would light up like a christmas tree!  I was around 4 years old visiting my great grandma in the nursing home, when I decided I would spend my life sending that secret box of love through my smile.

Many times over the last 4 years, people have questioned my love of LOVE.  I always sign my name Love, Lex.  Several people have told me to change my signature, because they believe some will think I’m coming from a different place than I am.  It makes me sad that when you come from a place of peace,hope, and love, it can be twisted into all kinds of untrue things.  I know who I am, and where I’m coming from!  I know it is a whole lot better to Love with an open heart, than to live in fear of others misconceptions!

I am wishing you a wonderful Holiday season, full of beautiful and honest love, that is bountiful and hurts know one, but EMPOWERS all!  Peace and Hope to you, everyday of your life!

Me when I was little!

LOVE,
LEX  :0)

Webster’s defines love in 8b as…….”The feeling of benevolence, kindness, or brotherhood towards others”.  Wouldn’t it be something if the world could embrace that! Thanks for visiting!

Currently listening:
Wilco (The Album)
By Wilco
Release date: 2009-06-30